What a long weekend! What started out to be a some time for me and Hubby to spend alone for Valentine’s Day ended up with him taking care of Peanut and me Saturday through Monday. Peanut was sick with a high fever and sore throat. She was pretty much unable to eat and even needed help to use the bathroom. Poor baby.

On Saturday I had a headache that slowly turned into a migraine. It lasted all day and ended up turning into a bad migraine where I needed to be in a dark room and was sick to my stomach. It lasted until Tuesday. Peanut’s fever dropped Monday night but she still had a low grade one. So she was home from school on Tuesday.

We were both sleeping most of the day. I did my best to get her food and medicine. She was able to do a lot more for herself yesterday thank goodness. I hate not being able to take care of her when she’s sick. I can’t even give her a hug. You see not only is it due to not feeling well, it’s because I can easily catch what she gets. Talk about Mom guilt.

I was able to get her to school today. The migraine is pretty much gone but I’m exhausted from almost a three day run in with it. I wasn’t online for 2 days. I’ll be sure to spend quality time with her this week.

I still haven’t been to a blogging convention of any kind. I had really hoped to attend Blissdom this weekend but with saving money for my daughter’s wedding and with me not feeling well, it turned out not to be possible. I’ve been reading about the fun everyone had on Twitter and I’ve seen some photos on Flickr.

I keep thinking, “one of these days” but I think if I don’t actually make the reservations, buy the tickets, and set up the transportation I won’t go. A while ago I was planning on attending a conference and even went so far as to start to order some promotional products like business cards and pens, but then I ended up getting scared about keeping up with everyone because of using a scooter when there’s a lot of walking to do and getting fatigued easily. Basically I chickened out.

Once the wedding is paid for, I promise that I will try to attend at least one conference. It will be good for me and good for business.

Today was just the perfect day to be lazy with Peanut, curled up together, watching TV, looking at some videos online, playing a few games together and just talking and laughing. My favorite kind of thing to do. It doesn’t take much energy, of which I am still in low supply but it is such a special time.

Peanut is getting older and wiser. She worries that I am sick and knows it’s been a long time. Spending time together like this is helpful so that she can realize that I am still able to be her Mom in ways that are important.

Having things that we can enjoy together makes it even more fun and being able to just snack and not expecting big meals is perfect. We can have fun and not worry about anything. She opens up and talks about things that are on her mind during our special time.

Tomorrow Hubby will probably do something and take her outside and run around a bit.

In my effort to feel better physically, I’m trying to find things to do that don’t take much effort but can keep me happy and lessen stress and the sadness I’m feeling about being cooped up in the house. I did this when I was very sick and forgot about it. But this morning while I was trying to eat breakfast, I looked out the window and it came back to me.

I used to watch birds that came to visit us in our yard because of the bird feeders we had. We don’t have feeders any more, so no more bird watching. I lost interest in looking at the yard because there’s not much to see now. But this morning, my thoughts changed. I saw our “outdoor” cat, Lacy resting under a tree. She slowly started to stretch. As I watched she began to curl up and get into a hunting position. She must have found a lizard, because she crouched low to the ground and began her chase.

As I watched I found myself relaxing and enjoying myself. I noticed the blades of grass starting to come up in a few area, the sun shining on the trampoline, the knots in the wooden gate and I was lost in the view.