On Being A Strong Mother

That phone call is the one that will stick with me forever, the one when I became a strong mother. The one where you move so fast that you can feel the adrenaline pump through your body as your mind races along with it.  Your body acts on auto pilot. Your thoughts are a mess. When they come back to you later, you want to erase them from your mind.

You own the road as you drive too fast. Your own sobbing scares you. The phone is being used to call those closest to you, but you keep hearing, “What did you say?”. There’s no time or energy left to repeat yourself so you just say, “Get to the hospital.” Damn the stopped cars, beep your horn. The world needs to know.

As you arrive, you wonder how will you be a strong mother? How do you hide the tears, the inability to talk, the fear, the utter fear? But, something kicks in. There are no words to describe it. And you see her, so small on the cot, with fear in her eyes. You rush over to hold her hand. Brush her hair back and look at her in the eyes. Cover her with kisses as you tell her that it’s going to be OK. The lie just comes out.

The EMT’s arrive and push you away. You hear their voices, but the words aren’t sinking in. You try to get in the back of the ambulance, but they need room for two EMT’s. You’re able to answer questions as they tell you they NEED the information. As they drive, you keep looking through the back window to see your daughter. You have to have her in your vision at all times. When you arrive at the hospital it’s still your duty to be a strong mother. More questions. More hand holding. More fear.

HeartThe emergency room has no answers as your daughter’s heart rate goes down from 167 to the 130’s. There was no medication given, just an IV with saline. You’re told to bring her back if it happens again. How will you know? There was no sleep that night for anyone. More lessons on being a strong mother whose daughter was soon diagnosed with sinus tachycardia and after a while, other cardiac conditions.

Are you a strong mother? If so, why?

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Connie Roberts

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Living in the Tampa Bay area, I'm lucky enough to see beautiful sunsets almost every day. Although life can be difficult at times, focusing on the positive and being with my family is what gets me through.

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  1. 1

    I admire you, your daughter is a lucky gal to have such a strong, dedicated, and determined Mom. I rely on my faith to get me through the tough days. We sacrifice a lot, sitting in the hospital rooms, we become medical experts and read up on everything we can to make our child’s life better. We hurt when our child hurts. We just have to stay strong to keep them strong. That is what mom’s do. You are an amazing Mom.!

  2. 3
    Maxhine Yap says:

    Reading your post makes me remember my mom. I can say she’s a strong mom for being able to raise five of us children with such care and tenderness. I know she endure a lot of pain specially when I was hospitalized for not being able to move my body and my heart beat went down. I was put in ICU for 2 days and seeing her with tear in her eyes really makes me believe that she love me a lot. I really love my mother and I want to be like her. Strong and Cool.

    • 4

      Maxhine, it sounds like you will be a loving and caring mother just like your mom because you recognize what she’s done for you. I wish you the best!

  3. 5

    Wow! You really are such a strong person and mother. Your daughter is so lucky to have you. I don’t know how you do it all.
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  4. 6

    Oh Connie, I just want to hug you. And I hate ERs. It always seems like their goal is to get you out of there as fast as they can.

  5. 7

    You are a strong mother…so am I. When Aaron accidentally sliced his wrist at church last month, no one could believe how calm and focused I was on dealing with the emergency and never freaking out. I said…”I’m a mom it’s what we do” and I was told by several people that not all moms are that strong…who knew?
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  6. 8

    wow. i am grateful i’ve only had to go to the ER for my children twice. you are amazing to be able to withstand that. i think i am like cindy and can stay calm and focused cuz our little ones need to know that we will hold them up during ANY crisis. like Cindy said: who knew?
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  7. 9

    I dont know that I am as strong of a mother as you Connie but Im sure if I were put in a situation I could surprise myself.
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  8. 10

    Connie! You are such a strong mother. My heart was pounding when I read that. I think we all just need to do the best that we can with what we have at the time. That is all we can do and you did it! hugs!
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  9. 11

    How is your daughter feeling almost two weeks since this lastest medical episode?

  10. 12

    I admire you for your courage. Life’s challenges do make us stronger. Sometimes, we all feel helpless. All that we have holding us together is faith.

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  11. 13

    Wow. Such a powerful story.