Happy or Not?

With all that’s being going on in my life lately I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching. Being a Christian I do most of my soul searching through reading the Bible and through prayer. I’ve been trying to get a grasp on what God wants for me at this time in my life.

I feel as if I’m going through a mini mid-life crisis. I’m being pulled in a lot of directions and not getting the joy I felt with the things I’m doing like I used to. As a matter of fact some times the ministries or volunteering I do feels like work. This can be because of not having much energy and not doing as well as I have been usually health-wise. Or can my health be suffering because I’m not happy?

There’s a lot of stress in my home right now. We have many little things that need to be finished in the home decorating department. I’m not good at that so I put it off. There’s clutter around which makes me feel anxious, jobs half done like painting. Photos that need to be framed and hung up.

So I’ll continue to pray and search for answers. I may end up giving up something so that I can take on a new project. I may be home more so that these things can be finished. Whatever I do it will be because I’m led by God and then I will feel more at peace.